Joseph Smith on the Subway

When we arrived at the platform there was only one other person waiting.  He was a middle aged white man with glasses and a well trimmed beard.  I stood a comfortable distance away and we all waited silently for the train.

“Mormons huh?  I used to be one of those.”  The man offered without looking at us.  I knew a set up when I heard one but I’ve always been that silly fish that takes the bait knowing full well there is a hook in it.  “Really?  What happened?”  I returned.  “You need to read the Doctrine and Covenants,” he answered and before anymore could be exchanged the train arrived, the doors opened, and he went for a different car.

As I stepped onto the subway car I became immediately aware that this was not to be like other commutes.  It was standing room only.  Not just crowded but that uncomfortable squish where parts of you touch parts of other people and the jostling of movement ensures you never grow accustomed and or comfortable.  While my view was mostly armpits and shoulders I noticed the other odd thing; everyone was white, and everyone was male.  I noticed all this but had no time to react before the doors shut and we sardines were encased for the duration.

“Ya know, Joseph Smith was an adulterer.”  I heard a voice state matter-of-factly.  From a different direction I heard another man say, “Smith was a liar who believed in witchcraft.”  I looked around to identify the voices and saw that all eyes were on me.  I looked around for my companion to find that he had somehow managed his way to the back corner of the car and was standing facing the wall, so much for back-up.

Another man, one right next to me, looking me in the face said, “Joseph Smith is in Hell right now.”

None of their statements were things I had not heard before but this whole scene was a bit overwhelming.  Looking at this man’s face I saw no clue as to his motivation, he appeared to have no emotion at all.  I looked down from his face to focus on a name tag he was wearing.  I do not recall his name but I do recall the organization, the Promise Keepers.  I looked around and noticed all these men were wearing similar tags.  Many had titles such as Rev. or Pastor before their given name and if I had to guess the average age was 45.

“How can you follow such a liar?” yet another voice called from the crowd.  I had been a missionary for almost a year now, I had just turned twenty.  Normally I would answer such questions with contradicting facts or questions as to the questioners’ sources.  This time I didn’t.  I stood there almost outside myself in shock.  Here I was, a kid, crammed onto a train full of middle aged men, most of whom wore titles earned by schooling or mid-career progression.  By their questions they obviously thought me uneducated and misguided.  The titles they wore and the event they were attending deemed these as men who had taken upon them the responsibility of helping others, and here they were, surrounding a sole young soul, and this is the tact they chose?

They continued on as if this was one of the convention’s role plays or exercises.  Each man individually took a turn trying his best one liner to destroy my faith.  Not a single one of them appeared to have taken the time to consider what I had done previous to putting on the tag I wore, what it took to wear it day-to-day, or what it meant to me to wear it.  They were just a bunch of old men publicly insulting the things closest to my heart.

I stood tall and listened.  I did my best to look at the face of whomever it was speaking while they took their stab.  When there was finally a lull I took my turn.  I suppose they expected some sort of religious retort, or possibly a parry of sectarian insult, I think this is what I expected of myself.  Instead of any of these things I simply said,

“I know what I believe.  You will not change what I know.  The idea that you, grown men, religious leaders, would choose to insult me, and insult someone you know full well I believe to be a prophet of God, is much more a testament to your own character than anything else.”

As if on cue the train stopped, the doors opened, and I stepped off.  I watched as my companion gloomily shoved his way out another exit and we continued on our way.  I was not then, nor am I now, particularly eloquent.  The words I said then were a surprise to me and I have since rarely achieved such punctuation and clarity.  I can’t even be completely sure those were my exact words.  There was no training for handling this sort of situation, there was no manual for antagonistic trainloads of convention attendees.  What I do know is that what came out of me that night either came from somewhere deep within, or came from elsewhere entirely.

I sometimes wonder if any of these men remember the scene.  I am curious if my words had any effect.  I simply stepped off the train and went about my business, and they sped off to somewhere else.  None of the things they told me that day had an impact on me, but them saying those things surely did.

Advertisements

6 Comments

Filed under events

6 responses to “Joseph Smith on the Subway

  1. Bryan Rhodes

    Incredible, powerful experience. Thanks for sharing!

  2. did you keep a mission journal?
    I hope you keep writing these amazing experiences so that the rest of us can hear them. Amazing.

  3. @Lyric, yes, three volumes worth.

  4. im with BR and lyric, incredible stuff here. Please keep them coming.

  5. What a great story and comment to these professed men of God. I have never understood the need to demean another’s faith. I prefer to hear of another’s love and passion for what they believe and would hope they would look for the same in me.

  6. William Bernard Allen

    I was raised an Evangelical Baptist. This is typical of the type… Sad you had to endure such closed minded comments. You were the real man on that train.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s